i'e had a few instances of memory loss these past few, gaining consciousness in a strange place surrounded by people i don't know.

and everytime it happens, i can't say why but i love it.

tell you one of my secret favorite things, playing gta 5 and getting lost on the map, fantasizing that it's me and that i'm lost with no memory of who i am. just a few random flashes and voices of s.c. and my mom, but no idea of where i'm going nor coming from. usually playing rhubarb or moby's when it's cold, and going somewhere alone to die.

gotta tell my therapist that.