what a world. 

my number one girl for the first time ever is someone i not only love beyond measure but also won't fuck because i just don't see her like that. different kind of love. 

but see even that seems wrong she gives me shit on top of shit to the point i wanna say fuck her and let's get this over with. 

but that would be wrong. ouss told me this tonight she's one i love without lust and that is so rare i should cherish her twice as much. remember the song 'cherish' man brian mcknight fucked me up. 

so fuck her for tonight. but not really i guess. 

and fuck me for trying to have conversations when all they want is a presence inside of them. the whole night i got girls sent to me and instead of playing it player i tried to start shit like 'what happens after you die' and 'what's your purpose' when they just wanna give me their tits for me to drool on. 

shout out jae dan and mike always. i got a girl coming from germany this weekend shit'll be fucking pornhub. 

aight let me back up. again. 

i miss ginger man. i should not but i do. and no i don't accept her moving on you kiddin me what kind of man would. me and her go together like beige and dark grey anything more literal would be too cheap. sorry bro but you're a step down i hope you know it. makes me feel bad about being that close to fuck nadia and i love nadia history tells me i should have gone with her back in 010 but it is what it is. 

i'm fucking four girls these days and there's no love anywhere near. and i feel like shit. 

not to mention friends turning their back for no reason i'm sorry birdman, i used to love you with all my heart but now if we ever meet it'll be your blood on your bitch's cheeks. 

i was reluctant to even say this, but i'm tired of fashion week, i'm tired of fashion altogether, and i'm tired of comme. granted i'm not thinking straight, still i know what my sighs mean. 

samir julian thibaut i love you guys. 

that would be all.